So my husband is acting like everything is normal.
And, in a way, this is our normal.
He yells. He had a meltdown. He withdraws. And I take care of the kids.
Why stay with him?
Because I’m afraid of him getting custody of the kids. I’m afraid of him getting mad at them and him leaving them at the house alone. I’m afraid that the kids will have issues with him. I’m afraid of him telling lies about me and I never see my kids again.
What the heck do I do?
my soul is tired.
I have no hope that things will get better. I’m tired of walking on eggshells with him. He needs help. .
But I promised to love him forever. I promised that I would be with him in sickness and in health. And wouldn’t it be me who abandoned him? When he needs me the most to help him get help wouldn’t it be me who left him?
I’m torn. I’m alone. And I want to cry. I want someone to hold me while I cry. I don’t want to be alone in the dark.