Two Faces Have I

Remember that song by Lou Christie? 

“Two faces have I One to laugh and one to cry”

That’s how I feel most of the time.  Like I have to be two people.  One person for work, for home, for life.  Always smiling, always funny.  Another person locked inside.  All alone.  No one’s friend.  Can’t let her come out.  It’s hard to connect the two.  To feel whole.  I’m thinking of taking down this blog.  No one cares.  It hurts to say that.  But I know it’s true.